Letting Go & Being Alone

I'm going through a transition phase in my life.  I mean, when are you not but this one is especially poignant. I'm losing people I thought were in my front row.  And that's ok!  But it isn't to say it's easy, because letting go of people you love can be a very painful and scary thing to do.  I've had to remind myself of just how far I've come on my journey and what that means.  I am fundamentally changed, deep change on a cellular level, vibrating higher than I ever have, with a consciousness that has been unalterable shifted.  That's no small feat.  But it also means that I'm not attracting or vibing with the same people I once did.  Nope, the universe has a bit more love, loyalty, and support heading my way.
 
The people I've lost in this journey all share some similar traits.  I didn't realize that until I sat down and started writing this.  But they are all at least a little broken, all suffering, and all in denial that they have the power to change their lives.  They all have potential, they all have huge beautiful hearts capable of so much love and joy, they all have a desire for change.... but not a single one of them wants to let go of their hurt/trauma/pain/perspective or shift their thinking to do it.  They are all happy to receive the benefits of my friendship, especially the unconditional love, loyalty, and emotional support... but not a single one of them offers it back to me.  In fact, they may have been in my front row but they weren't actually supporting me, they just weren't trying to stop me from succeeding.  And that's OK, I forgive them and myself for not seeing it sooner.  After all, we're human and have years of conditioning to overcome.  We all are doing the very best we can.  But here's the thing, the universe is removing them from my life because having a squad of deeply troubled people to commiserate with no longer serves me and I can no longer offer them anything of value.
 
Everything happens for a reason. Man don't you sometimes hate that little gem?  It can be such a small comfort that what's happening is actually creating something amazing in your life when you're faced with solitude and loneliness. But like I recently read on an oracle card I pulled... "When you stop fearing aloneness you stop settling for less than you deserve". Gotta get rid of the bullshit to make room for the magnificent.  And isn't the thought of people who truly vibe with you, support you, actively lift you up and make your life richer and more joyful surrounding you an exciting prospect? I firmly believe that's what happens when you lose relationships and friendships that you thought would span a lifetime, because it usually takes place during or after a time of significant personally and spiritual growth.
 
So instead of wallowing in loss I'm choosing to embrace the change. Change has always been good for me, and the irony of change being my constant in life is noted and absolutely delicious. I can release what no longer serves me because I know I'm attracting something that does.  I will miss these people, and I truly hope that they find joy and reach that potential that shines so brightly from them, but I'm also excited to see what I'm drawing to me at this point in my life.  To embrace the new kindred spirits that I'm about to meet. And while I wait for them to flow into my life with divine timing I continue to explore myself and follow my joy. Because being alone for a bit doesn't have to equate to being lonely.

There will be days, in fact there have been already, where I have to remind myself that what's headed my way will far surpass what's behind me.  That the new people that will enter my life will show me just how wonderful it was that I did let go.  Each and every time I tap into that feeling, the feeling of being around people who love, respect, and support you...the people that match your energy....oh that feels good.  I come alive with joy and smile.  So I'll treat myself that way for a bit and have a great time celebrating their arrival when they show up.  Because being alone doesn't have to make me lonely, instead I can let it be the sign that I'm on the precipice of some truly wonderful company.